I love you.

Im losing everything. My heart. My Soul. My head, everything in me feels like its giving up. I'm not myself sometimes. I smile, but behind it, it feels like im dying. I wanna know why I feel like this. Is it depression? PMS? or am i just have a huge mood lately? I don't know if I will ever know.
Things have been changing lately. My mom is now dating the guy she liked back when she was 15, its actually really cute! She seems much happier now, I think HE took her happiness away and controlled it but I think the new guy dug deep killed the dragon and saved the princess with her happiness, I have NEVER seen my mom so happy in my entire life. Its a GOOD thing.
I just got out of school Thursday. Whoa. The year went by sooo fast, its crazy, and to think about it I'm also getting Older, UGH! Well sense the years over that means.... the 9th graders leave. Which means my Jacob leaves. He's not actually leaving me, but we can no longer walk the school halls together laughing. I'll miss him during school, but then I can see him out of it :) I really do love him. He makes me happy and smile, plus hes like super strong! Jacob, I love you.
The person I've been missing so much? my dad. Sense I was a baby my dad has been one of my biggest hero's. I got my amazing musical talents from him and his smile. I miss my dad I haven't seen him sense March. I will get to see him soon though. Daddy, I love you and miss you.
In the end I have to say to finish this off all my readers, that's if I have any,
I love each and every one of you.