The feelings of being used.

You never know what it feels like to be used, until you are.
You may think what I am about to tell you is about someone pretending to be my friend to get something out of it like a C.D or a movie or something, but it's not.
A couple months ago after me and my ex broke up, I became friends with his best Friend, of course this new guy made me feel special. He told me anything that I wanted to hear, like that I'm beautiful, smart, energetic, funny and amazing. Which of course made me like him. We talked EVERYDAY, he told me my ex was a ass for dumping me and that he's a jerk, which made me like him even more. I told him about EVERYTHING in my life. We talked about my parents divorce, my brother, my family and friends and me. I told him everything he wanted to know about me and what he asked. Then about a couple weeks after that we grew really close. The only bad part was I have NEVER met him, I was very stupid at the time so we just communicated over text. I sent him a picture of what I looked like, and he sent one of him. Even though I have never met this guy, I really liked his personality, I even told myself a lot that I loved him. That was when the using began.
I remember the one night he first told I was being threatened, at first I didn't believe him, but then he started to bring stories and details into the picture, and thats when I started to believe him. ( I can not tell you what I did, to it is so bad and can not be spread onto the internet) After what I did I got in HUGE trouble. I felt like my parents hated me after it. I even hated myself, a couple days after it happened I would not eat, I would cut my wrists and I would sleep ALOT. I HATED myself because what I have done. I hated myself so badly that I almost killed myself in front of my own mom. I can not live without her, she is my hero, I love her so much, for if she was not there for me I would not be here right now. The person I hated the most was the guy that used me. I HATE HIM. SO MUCH. In my opinion he deserves to die.
A couple days ago I contacted this guy again, well mostly my friend did, but i helped. I wanted to know why he used me. His answer? he was bored. I cried when I heard that was his answer. I called him an animal and he said I agree I am sick and untamed, he sure is. He didn't even say sorry, not that it would have mattered anyways. I told him I almost killed myself, he said he it was a shame it didn't actually happen. He does not have a heart, he is self centered and he is a pig.
I have learned to NEVER talk to strangers after that and never trust them either, no matter who they say they are or how " nice" they are to you. They can hurt you, and it will scar you for life.
Believe me, I am a victim.